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Title: For the foreseeable future.......
Author: sharpes_hussy
Rating: G
Prompt: Memory
Summary: Sheppard looked out across the body of water.....

As he stripped off his vest and all the rest of his gear, he thought of the first time they had stepped through the gate. To say it had been amazing would demean the experience. Right now, he
needed some quiet time and even though his quarters were relatively quiet, he thought to see the tranquil waters off Atlantis would be much more fulfilling.
He headed out to the transporter, nobody around, which was good as right now it was not the time.
Fortunately, when he arrived at the east pier, he found it deserted.
He looked across the vast span of water, the sun leaving incredible colors as
it continued its movement into the horizon.
The scene brought back memories of lines from the poem,  Rhyme of the Ancient Mariner,  "As idle as a painted ship upon a painted ocean"...
There was no ship, but the rest very much reflected what he was now observing.
Sheppard sat down on the pier.
Then for some reason his thoughts turned to Colonel Sumner. Colonel Sumner of the, "Let me make myself clear, Major, you are not here by my choice."
Even now it made Sheppard's mouth turn up in a faint smile. He was sure he had done same then, but his back was turned to the colonel so it didn't cause any reaction from him. Instead he had just replied in passing, "I'm sure you'll warm up to me once you get to know me, sir." Wasn't that how it went?? That, and of course a bit of rolled eye action.
Later when it all hit the fan when the Wraith entered the picture, things were no longer adversarial, the colonel was then dependent on Sheppard.
When he arrived at the overlook, and took in the scene below, he could not believe what he was seeing.
Not even Afghanistan and the Taliban had conditioned him for what he was observing.
He was so mesmerized by what he was observing that at first he had forgotten why he was there and then pulled out of his momentary distraction, he began to fix sight on the queen and the colonel.
Later when the volleys came regarding how he had taken the colonel out, he wondered what they would have done given same scenario? Would they have just watched it all unfold and hoped that someone would do something?
When Colonel Everett came aboard Atlantis he pulled him aside, demanding to know why he was unable to save him, suggesting that he could have done the impossible. Colonel Everett was not there, but he was there later when he ran head on into the Wraith. Sheppard had gone to see him in the infirmary shortly before they medevaced him. The fact that the colonel had in an indirect way relieved him of doing what he had been forced to do for Colonel Sumner, now made little difference.
It still sat like a hard substance in the pit of his stomach. They had shipped Colonel Everett back to earth to retirement status, but for how long?
"I knew you would be out here contemplating," quipped McKay. Before Sheppard could reply McKay said, "So what is it this time?"
"Just taking in the amazing sunset."


Comments

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rubygirl29
Sep. 11th, 2011 01:22 am (UTC)
I wondered what Sheppard would have been thinking about Colonel Everett. There was always so much hurt and doubt in his face when he thought about Sumner.
black_raven135
Sep. 11th, 2011 01:33 am (UTC)
Haunted I would imagine
NOBODY with a soul should ever be asked to do something like that,
let alone defend themselves later.........
If they have not been there, then their comments are not
valid, no matter how much they feel they can envision it and
therefore decide what they would do
Monday morning quarterbacking in its worst form.
hoktauri
Sep. 11th, 2011 04:00 am (UTC)
Awww... *John*. Sometimes I just want to wrap him up in a bear hug. This is a hard memory for him to carry, taking out Sumner.

Very well done, perfectly evocative.
black_raven135
Sep. 12th, 2011 06:49 pm (UTC)
Thank you.
I was disturbed by the lack of empathy for what he was forced to do
When I saw 'Memory' as the prompt, it fit perfectly.
sherry57
Sep. 11th, 2011 07:32 am (UTC)
You can never put yourself in anyone else's shoes. Poor John who did what must be the most difficult thing anyone can ever do by taking out Summer and then had to live with it and his critics!
What he had to do must have scarred his soul forever.....he wouldn't need anyone else to punish him for it or make him feel guilty for it. I'm sure he would do that well enough himself.
Awww.....I just want to give him a hug and try to comfort him....although I don't think that would ever be possible.
black_raven135
Sep. 12th, 2011 06:51 pm (UTC)
You can never put yourself in anyone else's shoes

Exactly........To exhibit such hostility
and lack of empathy reflects badly on the individual but just made it much more difficult for Sheppard who had no choice.
stella_pegasi
Sep. 11th, 2011 01:32 pm (UTC)
What a moving story...from the beginning we saw that John Sheppard was not the person he was reported to be. He proved he was brave, determined, demonstrated his mantra of never leaving anyone behind, and showed us the darkness within that he could draw on to do what he had to do.

I do think that Everett's words would temper his guilt over Sumner but never take it away.

Very, very nice piece.

black_raven135
Sep. 12th, 2011 06:55 pm (UTC)
"...Everett's words would temper his guilt over Sumner but never take it away."

Nothing really can.......it is seared on his soul
I think it is particularly poignant due to the fact that it was so alien, no pun intended. He had been in Afghanistan and witnessed the Taliban etc., but the Wraith were a totally different.....totally alien to his senses.
altyronsmaker
Sep. 19th, 2011 12:43 am (UTC)
It would not shock me to learn (were he a real person) that John would snatch moment of reflection where he could and then deny that he was doing so. It would be an outlet, I think, giving the moments weight and time in his own head.

And the closing lines with Rodney...yeah.
black_raven135
Sep. 19th, 2011 12:56 am (UTC)
**nods**
My belief is Sheppard is a reflective individual.
There is much beneath the surface that others do not see.
I suppose it is why I often include recollections in the ficlets I do for SGA_Saturday
Thank you for taking time to read it.
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